Here comes trouble

I'm having way too much fun dressing Garrison and Josiah a like. They're going to hate me when they get older. It's so hard to go shopping and not buy them matching outfits. I'm going to have to control myself otherwise we'll end up broke.

Thomas' blog

Thomas has started a blog for the youth group. It's in the early stages of development. (He's trying to get used to how everything works. The blogging world can be somewhat overwhelming at first.) If you'd like to check it out click here.

wedding ring

I miss wearing my wedding ring. I haven't been able to wear it in about 6 months. I can't get it over my knuckle anymore. I remember when this happened during and after my pregnancy with Garrison. I only wish I could remember how long it took afterwards before I was able to wear it again. I'm wearing a substitute ring for now, but I miss my wedding ring.

Josiah's three month pics

I'm a little behind, but I thought since Josiah is now FOUR months old I should post his three month pictures. Here's our beautiful little boy at three months old.

Josiah

I captured Josiah's new high pitch little cry. (Don't worry after I shut the camera off I picked him up right away.)

our weekend

We spent Friday celebrating Garrison's birthday. We took him to The Depot in Duluth. Garrison loves trains or choo choos as he calls them. Then what better to do, but take him to a train museum? He loved it. There were all kinds of trains to look at and some to crawl in. They even had a few tables with Thomas the train trains to play with. We ended up buying a family pass for a year. The Depot also has a children's museum. It seems a little old for Garrison, but they are expanding and will hopefully have a section for Garrison's age in 2011.

Saturday we celebrated my birthday. Our pastors wife and one of their daughters came over to babysit Garrison and Josiah so Thomas and I could go out. We went to Famous Dave's. Thomas felt kind of bad for only going out to eat, but I reassured him that I was extremely excited about going. I didn't have to cut someone else's food and I could enjoy an entire conversation without little ones interrupting us. It was so nice! Afterwards we went to DQ for some ice cream.

Garrison had a blast with our pastors daughter. They ended up becoming the best of friends. He barely noticed we had come home. Josiah even did great. He fights sleep so I get a little nervous leaving him because I don't want him to cry a lot for others. However, the handful of times that we have left him with someone they tell us he did great. Maybe they're just trying to be nice or maybe he enjoys hanging out with us so much he doesn't want to go to sleep. Whatever the reason it was nice to get out and enjoy some alone time with Thomas.

My baby is 2 already!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GARRISON!

Two years and two days ago we were blessed with the most wonderful little boy. You brighten our lives everyday with your smile, your laugh, your everything. I love that God decided to choose your dad and I to raise you. We love you more than words could ever explain. Happy Birthday, Buddy!

The new background

I love changing the background of my blog. Sometimes it takes me hours to come up with just the right background. I try a bunch of different ones and most of the time I like so many that I can't pick the one I want to use.

I decided to put a sports background up since Garrison is turning 2 in 3 days and loves sports. I can't believe that Garrison is going to be 2 already!! Bring on the terrible twos.

2010!!

Happy New Year- 7 days late!

Ah, it's so refreshing to start new. I love new years, new mornings, new beginnings, new possibilities.

I normally make new years resolutions and then break them 3 days later. Not that I mean to, but life gets busy and I get lazy. However, this year I've been really thinking about how I wanted to bring in the new year and I think I got it. I don't want to have resolutions this year. I don't want to set myself up for failure. Instead, I want to have goals. I want to be able to say on December 31, 2010 that I met my goals not that I broke my resolutions 3 days into the new year. I know that I won't be able to exercise everyday or read my bible everyday or whatever my resolution might be, but I know that I can get things accomplished in a year by slowly working away at them.

I only have two goals in mind for 2010 (more of what I feel God is leading me to do in 2010 in a minute). The two goals that I have this year are: read the whole bible and lose my baby pooch.

Besides having those two goals this year I've really felt like God was telling me that this year is going to be a year of healing. Last year wasn't the greatest year for me. I enjoyed some aspects of it, like having Josiah, but as a whole I'm glad to have 2009 gone and 2010 to look forward too.

In 2009, I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and I'm glad that I was. That may sound funny, but it's made me realize that I was depressed long before I ever had Josiah. Since I've started my medication I have begun to feel like myself again and I don't think that I would have realized I was depressed on my own.

Now that I'm on medication and feeling like myself again I've come to see that I haven't felt like this in a long time (probably a good year or more). It's also opened my eyes to see that I pushed a lot of people away. Looking back now I can see that I pushed away things that were going good in my life because I couldn't control the bad I was facing.

This year, no more. I feel I'm on a path of healing. I want to heal from depression. I want to heal my relationships. I want to heal my spiritual life. I want to heal.

So I'm on my path to healing and with God's help I'll be me again in 2010.